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The Unfeigned Paladins

Saturday, April 23, 2011
Time: Me being at the verge of it
“Time: Me being at the verge of it”
I have been waiting for these days for a long time. But when I’m at its verge, I don’t know why I feel missing something vital. I find having many things to attest and a hell lot of things to do. Whenever at this verge of missing something important, I try to take a step that would make me miss nothing; I always find this new tale of time opposing me. Thus, I take a step back and somewhere my guts to fight these constraints, falls apart as usual.
In this four times whirling of our earth around the brightest sun, it’s been impossible for me to show my real inside to everyone. I have always been bonded by some sort of rules and conditions. I always felt if ever I try to break these rules of the ‘rule book’, I may lose something vital of my life. And, now when I have been a successful follower of the ‘rule book’, I find myself missing few of the vital things of my life.
One of the important things is that what makes me feel the same kind of psychosis which I once had two years back. But at that time the times never played any hide and seek fixture with me. This time when I had to fight with this time’s ‘rule book’, I find it almost impossible to hoist my guts to do something that will make me lose nothing.
So lonely and yet so empty, I sometimes feel, remembering the moments I had once spent in the last 40 percent of the decade. And thinking about the loneliness which I will have to face after jumping the verge of these days, makes me feel eerie. I wish I may rise to my guts and fight with this new ‘rule book’ that’s been opposing me.
With love,
Rajdeep…
